GungedHairFan said: Yea. I definitely think I'm an ugly Chud, but having long hair and dying it makes me feel a little sexier, and I constantly get compliments on it when I go out...when I'm messy, it's definitely an improvement. I generally set up a mirror to watch myself because I love how I look with messy hair, but it usually gets to a point where my glasses get covered and I can't see anymore, so it helps to be filming. As others have stated, I love watching my own videos, there are moments in them all where I'm just like "Daaaamn that's hot!"
I've seen your pics and girl, you are definitely NOT an "ugly Chud" You certainly know how to use your hair! If I' had your hair I'd be in the bathtub all the time, holding my nose and dunking myself, coming up with it all covering my face. When I was young it was long, and when I dunked myself ...or better still...got dunked by others...it made me feel sooo sexy. and attractive. Later I found when I combined dunking with crossdressing (full hair and make up) the pleasure of the dunking intensified and I sort of became...at least for a while..an attractive girl. Getting dunked as a guy doesn't do anything for me anymore. And I have no desire to crossdress unless it 's going to end up with me getting dunked. The combination of the two makes me feel very attractive and sexy. I think I'm more attractive as a girl getting dunked than as a guy.
Thnx for starting this post Jayce. These are some of the most interesting to read, to know what makes it tick. To know ourselves better and feel free to express it.
Yes it does make me feel sexy er in a few ways but the visual is a big part of it. My first experiences in elementary were seeing women with that blue green clay mask in a movie or something and I found my moms St. Ives clay mask with color. I love how it smelled and the look of it on my face completely covered. I remember as a teenager going into the drug store to buy one. My heart was pounding the whole way through the store and just exploding with excitement when I got home to play. 1997 found paint pics on the internet and got into the metallic still my favorite. I played in house paint a number of times and how it changed how I look was a nice vacation from my self. I have always had self confidence issues so this brought out my sexual expression and felt more beautiful in those moments. I can give myself those sentimental moments of, you are beautiful, you deserve to feel good ect. Women have a lot of pressure for a certain image. Men have there own pressures too. Am I manly enough, strong, do I make enough money... As is said, Money won't solve all your problems but it will solve all your money problems.
I'll tell you are hot and fit. Have nothing to worry about but these things are imprinted at a young age. They say the first 7 years of your is being programed and the rest of your life is trying to deprogram yourself. I am getting some therapy help too from my own challenges in life. I like chubby women too. To know they are nourished and strong. It's a sign of fertility. I think that was more of a thing in the past. Some day I would like to start a family so I want a partner who can carry and birth a healthy child. I don't like long fake nails. I'm a practical person so I look at that and think more a ditz. Like can you do besides look cute... I want someone who can go canoeing or hiking. A mother, a lover. We should complement each other , be stronger together and also have independence. I do like exotic makeup looks and find bold lip colors so arousing but I don't expect that all the time and it's expensive. A waste of time to over do the looks when there are so many better things to do in a day.
Another thing I have pondered is why I like playing in a clay mask and a regular thing is I like getting covered in St. Ives Replenishing lotion and the newest one Smoothing has a smooth thick texture. I find them both smell so sexy to me. It helps me connect to my feminine side. It's my spa treatment fantasy. Self care, loving myself and enjoying my time for me. I love how it feels over my face and love having a facial of it. In the bathroom a heater is necessary I'm the colder months because it's wet. As it dries I add more, another bottle... it builds up and gets ticker. I'm wearing it and see it as like suit or something, but that's it. I see it and feel it and feel so hot! Slippery, thick and smooth all over my body completely covered head to toe. OMG I'm turned on somewhat now. LMAO Also single at the moment so it gives me a feminine connection.
All the best on your journey. May peace be with you.
That's a really interesting question, Jayce. I don't have a very strong internal validator, so I rely pretty much completely external validation. I've had people in my life who tell me I'm sexy covered in mess, and in my best moments, I can believe that about myself.